get this:

a totally unbiased person told me today that they think it would be best for me if i stayed here and graduated from high school here in MI..

what do you say to this person who has experience, knowledge and a totally impartial opinion?

and then what do you say when your head is telling you to stay and your heart is telling you to get the hell out of here?

that job offer is still standing..  that's actually what brought up the conversation.. i know it wouldn't work if i was really going to leave in January..  and i want to go..  but now part of me wants to stay here and

i just hate all of this..  just when i think i've made up my mind 100%, there's .5% of me that doubts..  and how can you not pay any attention to that .5%?  how can you not think about it when it's eating your heart away??

loves,

arianne...